the amazing *cough* cosplay -show

WE don't ask you to make things "fair" we ask you to help us through tough times which you only shrug going "i don't understand" and move on.

We're down to the wire with food every month. That is poor Mal. My Mom still wants me to get a good education, which is why we try so hard to stay in fairport. We've had to sacrifice a lot. America has nothing to do with it.

Next time you go trick or treating, I'm not going; I decided that without having to tell you about it. It was unfair that you didn't tell me. And, if there such close friends to you, you can have them for Halloween. I understand that means alot to you (I guess.). Leave me out of it.

Carly tripped, yes. I tripped and nearly fell down a hill on 7 different occasions. We don't know your neighbor hood, Mal. You have to keep an eye out. Tora-con is public, so don't you try and drag that in. It's irrelevant because it's a different situation. This was your party. Meaning you must take ownership of the fact if someone got lost or hurt themselves.

Don't tell me and Carly "We're going as Alice in Wonderland, you should too!" when all the parts are taken. Yes, it does in fact hurt my feelings that I'm lower on the food chain and you didn't show any signs of it before. You can tell me I'm not that close a friend. At least some of your behavior will make more sense that way.

You lied to my Mom when you told her your Mom was home. That already set you on thin ice.

I'm not asking you to divvy up your attention. That's idiotic. I'm asking you to pay attention to one person at a time.

Teasing all depends on how sensitive a person is to the topic. 'm very sensitive about my speech. Elena and Carly know that, I don't know why you hadn't figured it out.

Don't start labeling me with "socialist". Your starting to cross an unacceptable boundary.

I cry. Yes. I am, in fact, a human being. Shocking, isn't it? It gets worse when you fail to understand, and instead of just giving me a hug, you say "Dude, chill." or laugh because it seems petty and small to you.

You lied to Jake about why he couldn't come over. You lie to your parents to get you out of trouble. How do I know you haven't lied to me about anything? I can trust Elena and Carly with anything; with you I can only defend myself and hope that you don't give me that "your an immature child with no knowledge of the facts" look. Yes. You have a look that aims straight for the soft spot in someone's heart. You use it more than necessary.

Sticks and stones is what you tell a kid when their being bullied. It hurts when it's coming from someone who is your friend, who you thought understood you. I assume you never have known what that's felt like, seeing as you've admitted before to shutting everyone else out. And I never believed it's because you were "scared of letting someone in". It's not like you. People getting to know the real you probably won't be beneficial to you, and "is a waste of breathe" as you say.

"Including" is fine. Not talking to people about numbers and then expecting them to deal is not.

Cosplay is not the root of this. "You do what you want" can also reflect negatively on us. Parents aren't always happy to hear that their kids are friends with someone who only listens to what they want. I hate having to explain why I'm friends with someone, and then not being able to defend them.

Think of others when you plan. Don't just make last minute plans, and then post about what fun you had later. If I'm lower on the food chain, just freakin' tell me. Then I won't give a care in the world what you do, because I only every return the love I receive, even though I've been constantly making exceptions with you. "Oh, she sent me home crying, but she was nice today. I'll forget about it." Eventually I end up putting aside everything and I can't even remember specific acts. Just the feelings. (Which I'll have you know come back ten fold when something else pops up.)

I'm not worried so much about Jake any more. We've discovered in art class that he is just an empty husk on the inside. I'm assuming that's why you love him so. It still doesn't excuse his behavior though. Nor the way you laughed that day. I just pity him now.

I have to go to bed.

And to clear the air about the last thing that was bugging me. (My own fault.) I'm really sad to find out you aren't at all the person I thought you were. I always thought you could deeply understand my problems and feelings when I told them to you. But I have to keep taking steps back and realizing you don't really understand me at all, do you? Deep down, that is...
I blame myself for getting to attached to your friendship.

Maybe this could have all been avoided if I remembered who was there for me first.

And for some reason I find it horribly impossible to believe you.

holy crap you just wrote a novel on here....O-O

Exactly at what point have I said that I'm "disabled" Mallory? I do actually take great offense to that. Scheduling conflicts do, in fact, suck up my time to the point where it takes me to 11:00 at night just to finish an average amount of homework.

Yes. I understand life is unfair. All I every ask is for a hug and for you to understand that I'm upset.

Which you don't. Ever.

You need to fill me in whenever I'm to be apart of your plans. That way I can say "No" right from the start.

I don't ask you to always include me. Just don't go off on a tangent about how much fun you had later after I was invited and I couldn't come because scheduling issues. It's hurtful.

I do every freakin' chore for my Mom, my Dad, and several for my neighbors. I work hard at it, too.

The only fault you've truly proven is that you can't be there when I need you. I've always thought that, if me, you, and Elena or Carly were in trouble one day; whatever it may be. You would be the first to run. You've always seemed like the kind to only be concerned about what happens to you, and someone gets completely ignored or hurt in the process. That is not something a friend should overcome for another supposed friend.

Human beings are gregarious creatures, and if you can't work well with all the people in your group, what's the point?

I've failed to see you display sympathy to anyone.

I say "people in your group" because I'm not going to point them out. Yes, Mallory. There are other people who are not proud of some of your behavior. I'm the only one who has the guts to say it to you because everyone else wants to keep you happy and there close friend when it's idiotic how much some people are willing to give for you.

I wouldn't have started this whole thing if it was only for me. That would be called an exercise in futility. I prefer not to waste time on meaningless things.

You asked for my opinion first, you got it.

Emma, I'm really sorry you feel that way, but I must jump in here. Trust me, it'll be my last testament, no matter what happens. I promise.

Just recently I came to Aara with a problem and you know what she did? She walked me through the entire process -- she gave me advice, referenced to similar things she's gone through, and just generally gave me all of the help I needed. I don't understand why you see her that way -- if anything, all she's ever done is be there to help her friends. All you need to do is come to her with open arms and accept that she can't do everything, and she can't fix all of your problems for you. It's just how things are.

I guess I've never been important enough to get that sort of special treatment.

I never need her to "fix things". I need her to tell me it's okay, at the very least; and maybe take my side when someone has wronged me.

They were in my eyes. That's what you asked of me.

And "sympathy" does not mean "make it all better for me". It means being able to, at the very least, confide in someone when you are hurt. I thought you understood me better than you do, but things in the last month tells me that you know nothing at all. Which is so surprising because I know enough about you to the point

(My Mom wants me to sign off right now.)

whoa waht's all this one here?